Archive for January 2006

Remedial Training phrase 3


The OC at Maju Camp keep saying if you fail phrase 2 RT, there is no phrase 3 for us.

He is wrong. I’ve just enrolled myself into phrase 3 RT. I wanna pass my IPPT….

Selamat Hari Raya Haji

I always wonder this question during religious holiday. Why is it that people always say things like:-

Wishing all Muslim Selamat Hari Raya Haji.
Wishing all Christian a Merry Christmas.
Wishing all Buddhist a Happy Vesak Day.
Wishing all Hindu Happy Deepavali.
etc etc etc…..

Why can’t it be everyone? Singapore is a multi-racial country. 1 religion holiday, everyone get holiday. Everyone celebrate together. So why just wish the muslims only?

So I’m not muslim, I cannot have a Selamat Hari Raya Haji lah?

Ok Ok….. I know I sound naggy today.

Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone. :)

Strange feelings…..

Don’t know how to describe my feelings now. Its just some strange feelings that I’ve never encountered and don’t know how to use words to describe it.

Jessie SMS me all of a sudden after being MIA for nearly 3 months. Its quite common for us to lose contact and suddenly for no reason SMS each other again. We been doing that ever since we broke off more than 3 years ago. We still meet up once in a while.

I’ve always thought that she was the person I loved the most. That was until when I met Z when I suddenly ask myself, was it really love that I had for Jessie when we were together? The feelings I had for Z is totally different from the one I had for Jessie. The way I treat Z and the way I treat Jessie is different even though I’m not attached to Z. I see myself doing things that I would never had done for Jessie few years back. Perhaps that is why she left me.

Anyway, the conversation between Jessie and me would always revolve around the same few topic. She will always ask me if I got new gf while I’ll ask her when she getting married. Kinda expecting her to get married soon, since she set her friendster status to married. But what shocked me was, she broke up with that guy whom she went steady with few mth after breaking up with me. After a couple of SMS, she reveal to me that she had a new bf, someone whom she knew for roughly 2 years. They been together for a few month and he has proposed to her. She has accepted. They will be ROM-ing in Oct. Congrats. :)

I was speechless at first. The feeling was kinda strange. I have no more feelings for her already. I’m sure. But I was kinda expecting her getting married with that guy, but it turn out to be another guy. Someone whom she is together with for mere few months. Somehow, I just don’t know how to describe the feelings inside me now.

Isn’t it strange? You been together with a guy for many years, but turn out, another guy whom you are together with for a few mth sweep you off your feets. Love is strange isn’t it? Perhaps it is not the length of time you are together, nor the special things you do for the person. Perhaps it is just some chemcial reaction inside the body that matters. Cupid’s arrow? or just meeting Mr Right?

Which make me wonder, why do I bother being extra good to the person I have interests in? If the chemical is correct, I don’t even need to lift a finger and she will be falling in love with me. If the chemical is wrong, no matter how many stars I shoot down for her, she will still treat me as the person on the other side of the ladder.

I think I’ve been taking the wrong approach in chasing gals. Which explains why I keep failing and failing when it comes to love. Isn’t it funny? It takes me 25 years to discover that.

Perhaps I should start about doing something about myself rather than doing something for the person I’m interested in. Change my dress sense, change my style or whatsoever. Don’t bother about those special little things that you think will touch her heart. Even if you manage to touch her heart, it will still be those “friendship” way of touching. Why bother?

Perhaps it is time I change the person in the mirror. 2006 seems a good year to change myself. Coincidently, my MP3 is now playing “The Reason” from Hoobastank.

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

Chance

A phrase from Jessie’s sms keep echoing inside my ear.

“Chance is to be grabbed, not give one”

When was the last time I grabbed a chance? I stare at my so-called new year resolution. I ask myself, am I still keeping it or have I already given up just merely 1 week into 2006.

If everything last this long

The washing machine is due for retirement already. We’ve overworked him. The washing machine has been with us for so long, I can’t really remember when we got it. I only remember playing inside the box that comes with the washing machine. That is damn bloody long. Although it is still working, it create loud noise sometimes. Maybe it is complaining that it has already pass the age of retirement. Maria say she saw a 7kg washing machine selling at $438. I think I’m going to foot the full bill since Maria is getting married end this year. No point asking her to share the cost. She won’t be using it anyway.

My computer monitor is giving problem. It requires some “warm up” before it shows anything on the screen. And the warm up time ranges from 10 sec to 30 minutes, depending on its moods. I have no complaints here. After all, this philip monitor has been with me for 5 years already. My previous monitors never last more than 3 years. Maybe it is due to my heavy usage. Its about time I let the monitor retire and get a new one. Still thinking if I should get a 17 inch or 19 inch LCD monitor. 17 inch cost $449. If I add another $50, I can get a huge 19 inch.

Then my wireless mouse decide to give me problem. It has been showing problem few days ago when the scroll wheel go haywire. It will scroll by itself!! But after a few knocking, it went back to normal. Today, it decided to give more problem. The buttons go haywire this time together with the scroll wheel. So I get auto scroll and auto click.

Maybe it has been influenced by the monitor. After all, they are sitting side by side. But 1 thing that the mouse forgot is that, unlike the monitor, it is small and wireless. There is nothing I can do to the monitor when it decided that it need more warm up time. The monitor is so big and has wires. But the mouse is different. Small and wireless. Got so fed up with it that I threw it on the floor and took out my laptop mouse to use.

Never play punk with me if you are small, wireless and replaceable.

If only everything last half as long as this lightbulb. 104 years and still counting…..