Archive for August 2007

Shirlyn Tan – Couldn’t We Try

Been putting this song on repeat for the whole day. Somehow it’s a reflection of my current mood and thoughts. Am still listening to it now on repeat. The more I listen to it, the more I see myself.

Put down the fences that you built around
Shutting me out giving me no chance to say I’m sorry
Going crazy since the day you said goodbye
Couldn’t we stand by each other
Couldn’t we try

Been searching youtube for this song, but can’t find any.
Tried searching for the lyrics too, but also return none. The only site with the lyrics of this song is at shirlyntan.com. But the lyrics is in flash format and I couldn’t copy it out.

Took the effort to type out the lyrics. Perhaps for the next person who is feeling down to copy and paste into his blog.

Shirlyn Tan – Couldn’t We Try

I was hoping we could be
Sitting at the door looking out to sea
I was hoping we could be
Making up plans, start a new life
Just you and me

I was hoping we could be
Counting the stars above, feeling free
I was hoping we could be
What we always wanted when we found the one we love eternally

Oh my love, can’t you see
This time we spend apart is a sad sad aching misery
Oh my love baby baby baby
I lost myself without you next to me

I’m just sitting by myself
Making up a lonely song, sing to me
I’m just drinking by myself
All the walls closing in
I run around to find my sanity

Oh my love, can’t you see
This time we spend apart is a sad sad aching misery
Oh my love I’m waiting waiting waiting
I can’t turn back time but I want you to know
That I love you so

Put down the fences that you built around
Shutting me out giving me no chance to say I’m sorry
Going crazy since the day you said goodbye
Couldn’t we stand by each other
Couldn’t we try try try

Put down the fences that you built around
Shutting me out giving me no chance to say I’m sorry
Going crazy since the day you said goodbye
Couldn’t we stand by each other
Couldn’t we try

I was hoping we could be,
Making up a song, singing it together in harmony
I was hoping we could be
Falling in love all over again
We could be

Appreciation

Got an email from my director today morning.

Hi all,

Since Project M is launched in Jan. We have been doing XXX.

It had been a long struggling for us to fix this problem. Many of our man hours were put in to prevent this from becoming to a disaster.

Together with our AAA department colleagues, we managed to stablise this.

I am pleased to inform since, 20 Aug, we are no longer doing XXX. The exceptions are now being handled thru the normal channel.

As a token of appreciation of your hardwork and perseverance in fixing this, I would like to invite you for a small lunch

Date: Fri, 31st Aug
Time: 12.30noon – 2pm
Venue: Meeting Room A
Food – Pizza, muffin, old chang kee curry puff, coffee and tea and maybe some fruits.

PS – AAA department colleagues will be joining us too.

I still remember being super duper busy during Feb because of this. So busy that I was OT-ing every night. So busy that I almost need to come back to office on the 2nd day of chinese new year. So busy that I hardly had any time to company my gf at that time. (Someone said that maybe we won’t break up if I wasn’t that busy during that period. I wasn’t sure about it.)

Well, at least it is over. I’m glad I was part of the team in solving the error. It gave me a chance to show everyone my full capabilities.

Its nice that our director decided to give everyone involved a treat. Although it’s just a small token of appreciation, it is the thoughts that really counts.

Sometimes, I don’t mind doing a lot. End of the day, I just want to be appreciated.

Diana, Princess of Wales (1 July 1961 – 31 August 1997)

Your candles burned out long before, Your legend ever will.

It has been 10 years already. Still remember watching the live broadcast of the funeral. Almost cried while listening to Sir Elton John singing Candle in the wind. Her death was a great lost, not only to England, but also to the world.

And it really seems to me that she live her life like a candle in the wind. She knew that the media is always around her. She played with them, make use of them and bring them to places that requires media attention. From the Angolan minefield to the sickbed of a man with AIDS. She used the media attention on her to help gain public awareness and improve the world. But unknown to her, it is the media that causes her death in the end.

Goodbye England’s rose. We miss you.

Elton John – Candle in the wind 1997

Goodbye England’s rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
You called out to our country
And you whispered to those in pain
Now you belong to heaven
And the stars spell out your name

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall here
Along England’s greenest hills
Your candle’s burned out long before
Your legend ever will

Loveliness we’ve lost
These empty days without your smile
This torch we’ll always carry
For our nation’s golden child
And even though we try
The truth brings us to tears
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall here
Along England’s greenest hills
Your candle’s burned our long before
Your legend ever will

Goodbye England’s rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
Goodbye England’s rose
From a country lost without your soul
Who’ll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you’ll ever know

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And you footsteps will always fall here
Along England’s greenest hills
Your candle’s burned out long before
Your legend ever will

Tears

Sometimes I think that it is because I cried too much when I was young, that why I couldn’t cry now.

I still remember that I was a crybaby when I was young. Crying over small matters. I know it was bad. But as I grow older, I begin to cry lesser and lesser. Until now when I find it hard to cry anymore.

It was so bad that sometimes when I was feeling sad or hurt, I would try to force myself to cry. Tears are amazing things. They warm your face and comfort you when you at feeling down. They dry up on your cheek and encourages you to stand up again and move on.

I still remember several times when I was feeling so hurt that I wish I could cry but I just simply can’t. The feeling was terrible. I was already feeling that bad already, why couldn’t I shed some tears to comfort myself. Sometimes, it would take a few days of continuous pain and sadness for me to shed a few drops of tears. I was sad, yet glad and comforted when the tears flows across my cheek.

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I wish I could cry tonight. Am only human. There is only this much pain I can endure. For the first time ever, the thought of giving up occurs in my mind. But I couldn’t bear to put down everything and walk away as if nothing ever happen. There is too much to lose.

It’s really painful, yet the tears just won’t flow.

Workers’ Party should not be allowed to hold cycling event

I was pretty shocked when I heard that the Workers’ Party wanted to hold a cycling event at East Coast Park on 9 Sept in conjunction with its 50th anniversary. How could these opposition parties be so irresponsible? Don’t they know the social implication caused by such events? Thankfully, our efficient Singapore Police Force rejected their application for a permit. I don’t dare to imagine the social disorder that might happen if such dangerous events are given the green light.

And these opposition party really too much. They still have the cheek to ask during Parliament why their permit was rejected. Stop wasting time at Parliament. We got more important things to discuss at Parliament like minister pay increment, GST hike, public transport hike and ERP hike. Who cares about your cycling activities? (Well, unless you are going to install an In-vehicle Unit and cycle thru the new ERP gantry) Luckily we only got 2 opposition members in Parliament. I couldn’t imagine the amount of time wasted if more of you guys get elected.

Luckily our Senior Minister of State for Law and Home Affairs, Prof Ho Peng Kee was quick reply the questions post by the opposition. “Police requirement is that such party activities be held indoors or within stadiums, so that any law and order problems will be contained. This policy applies to all political parties,”

I totally agree with Prof Ho. Our Singapore Police Force are not able to contain any law and order problem outdoor created by your cycling event. They are already very tired already. So tired that they have to sleep in multi storey carpark. They can’t even handle the social disorder cause by 40 gays jogging along Singapore River. What makes you think they can handle your big group of cyclist? You guys aren’t the ruling party who will behave themselves during large outdoor events. Everybody knows that opposition party members are well known to create trouble outdoor. We seen it couple of times outside CPF building and Hong Lim Park.

And Prof Ho also added that “You may be well-behaving, but there may be other people whom you come across when you cycle who may stop you, may want to debate with you and that may attract a crowd, and therefore will result in problems the police want to avoid.” I find this statement very true. We all know that supporters of opposition parties like SDP and SDA will not debate with WP since they are on the same boat. But PAP supporters will since they have different political point of views. That is 66.6% of the Singapore population vs your small group of supporters. Imagine what will happen if all 66.6% of them were to go ECP on that day and challenge you guys to a debate. And also, Prof Ho cannot control his supporters and tell them not to go ECP to disturb your cycling event. Just go to their YPAP forum and you can see that it’s pretty out of hand. What if they bring the online flaming offline? So for the safety of the WP members, the cycling event cannot go on. It’s for your own good.

Really. The PAP actually care and concern about the safety of WP members. Outdoor political events are too dangerous. Only the ruling party are capable to hold outdoor events safely. That is why the police always approve the permit application by the ruling party. The opposition party can’t do it in a orderly manner. Better to hold your event indoor and cycle in a multi purpose hall.

And I’m sure Mr Low is wearing his hearing aid. But he confirm isn’t wearing his thinking aid. Well… at least not the type of thinking aid that Prof Ho was wearing.