Archive for October 2007

Bad management

I’m beginning to worry about blogging about work issue. Been playing with facebook lately and added a few colleagues to my friend list. Well, they are close colleagues and I don’t mind letting them read about my work rant. But there are also quite a number of other colleagues in their friend list. And since I’ve added the cool ping.sg facebook apps, anyone who checkout my facebook profile would know about my blog. And they will know if I say bad things about them.

But then, what the heck. Why bother?

So…. Warning: Work Rant ahead.

A colleague of mine just gave birth to a baby boy last weekend. Congrats.

She is now on maternity leave. Meaning the team is short of 1 person for 2 months. Her due date was suppose to be 2 weeks later but I was joking with her last Friday that she better start her handover session soon in case she give birth on the coming weekend. And she gave birth the next day. Anyway, this kind of thing is rather hard to predict. Sometimes it would go off the mark by a few weeks.

Although I’m not under the same sub-team as her, I was expecting to get some of her work as I used to be from that subteam. (Plus I’m quite free lately. Look, I’m even blogging during office hours. Pray boss doesn’t see this.) At first I thought she don’t have any outstanding issue since I didn’t hear anything from her sub teamlead on Monday and Tuesday. I was on leave on Wednesday and when I came back on Thursday, I saw 1 big request inside my mailbox. Huge one.

And it is not those last minute request. The whole thing was in discussion since early September and they expect to roll out today. And the sub teamlead didn’t have any backup plans like getting a coverer ready and keeping the person inform about the latest developments. He thinks that the doctor’s prediction is very accurate.

And he didn’t notice that the request wasn’t done it until Wednesday. I heard from my colleagues that he made lots of noise and complaint that he has no resource and stuff. True, he don’t have any resource to serve that request. But he could have requested for backup much earlier. Not until the last minute then make noise. He was lucky that he managed to get the requester delay the production date to next Friday. Else how is it possible for me to complete such a big request within a day?

And when I ask him for the details about the request, he couldn’t give me. Then how? Call my colleague and disturb her maternity leave? Crazy. Anyway, I managed to find the details after checking around and asking other colleagues.

Conclusion: Bad management. No backup plans, no tracking of what your staff is doing and no knowledge about the request. Sigh.

But actually, I’m the pot calling the kettle black.

I was assigned to be the owner of one of the request. Am suppose to consolidate the total effort by every team but I missed out one team. Its not that I’m careless or anything. But this team is never at the analysis stage and never need to attend any meeting or get information from users. Our team does their requirement gathering for them and send them the information for them to work on.

They are so isolated that I forgotten that they are in this project. Oops.

张惠妹 – 你是爱我的

Most of the time, the thing u desire the most is the one thing u can’t have.

你是爱我的. 我是爱你的.
Just that we can’t be together.

张惠妹 – 你是爱我的

同样的一场日落
同样你还是没说
只是抱紧我
时间一到就松手

你用一万个理由
都比沉默还温柔
为什么爱我又不断退后
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等

我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

我用一万个答案
解释我们的距离
到最后发现我全都猜错
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等

我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

你怀里有太多问号
告诉我怎么依靠

我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等

我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

6 easy steps to increase your website’s traffic and technorati ranking

1) Choose a current event that is having lots of media attention. (Preferably a gross human rights violation)

2) Ask all bloggers to blog about that issue on a fixed day and declare that day as International Blogger day.

3) Create nice banners and request everyone to link to your site when blogging about that issue.

4) Spread the words.

5) Sit back and watch your traffic and technorati raking go up.

6) Do nothing to help solve the issue.

Additional Notes:
* It doesn’t matter if you are of no authority to declare a day as “International Blogger Day”. Nobody will bother to check your authority.

* It doesn’t matter if someone else had declared “International Blogger Day” previously. Everyday can be International Blogger Day if there is a gross human rights violation.

* It doesn’t matter if you do nothing to help solve the issue. Everyone will think that you are promoting awareness of the issue.

* Even when the mainstream media is covering the story 24/7, it is still not enough awareness.

* We need bloggers to promote awareness in case there are people who are living in a well and has no access to any form of media except blogs.

PS: I’m concern about the events that are happening recently. But I just can’t stand it when people are trying to leverage on the current situation for their own selfish gains.

In denial

Saw this quote from Grey’s Anatomy recently.

We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can’t recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

In a way, I think that is the state that I was in lately. Only want to believe in things that I want to believe. Denying the truth about the problems and obstacles that we are facing. Even when the truth is right infront of my face, I still choose to decide.

It wasn’t easy to let go. It never will. But I can’t go on denying the truth. I can’t pretend that things will work out eventually when everything just doesn’t seems to be in our favors. After all, we are from two different worlds. There are just too many issues that cannot be solved. We tried to work things out but it just doesn’t work.

Perhaps I should face the truth. It was never meant to be.

It hurts to be making the decision to let go on my birthday. But other than letting go, there just isn’t other way to go. Its not considered breakup because we didn’t become together to begin with. Its just letting go.

Had too many rejections and breakups in my life. But none of them as painful as this. The feelings for each other is still there. Just that we have to force ourselves to keep a distance because of the issues that could never be resolved.

Perhaps we are letting go because we love each other too much that we do not wish the other party to be hurt even further. Perhaps this is better for the both of us.

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday to Joyce and Kimmi.
And of cos, Happy birthday to myself too.

Wow…. Another year has pass. I still remember I was alone at east coast last year at this time. Was walking along the beach, listening to the sea and thinking about some stuff. Its amazing how fast time flies.

I always use my birthday and New Year eve to think back about the things that I’ve done for the year. Its like a checkpoint. To see where are you now.

I still remember my wish last year was “Let me find what I’m looking for”. Sound funny right? But when you are 26 years old and still don’t know what you are looking for, then something is seriously wrong with your life.

I’m glad that I’ve found what I’m looking for on my 27 birthday. I know what I want now. But the thing is, I couldn’t seem to get it. They seem too far away for me to reach. I don’t know which is sadder, not knowing what you are looking for or know what you are looking for but couldn’t get it.

If I have a wish this birthday, I’ll wish for the strength and courage to chase the things that I’m looking for.