Its been an long day for me.
It’s heart breaking to see the community that I spend so much time in split into 2 camps. It’s even more depressing that I was being banned from a site that I’ve been actively involved in. By a friend whom I’ve been supporting over the years without asking for any returns.
Whatever I’ve done in my initial blog entry, even if I was really breaking up the community like what they accused me of doing, I shouldn’t be banned without a warning. Even if I should be banned, there should be an email informing me of the banning and the reasons behind. I didn’t receive any email to tell me the reason behind my banning. That why I came up with my own conclusion out of anger. It was until after lots of complains by other pingsters did Uzyn wrote an official statement on my banning. It was posted on the forum, which I was banned from. I still didn’t receive any email from ping.sg regarding my banning.
This made me very angry and disappointed. That’s why I wrote a series of blog entries last night out of anger. I only slept at 9am today.
I admit I crossed the line several times today. Some punches were thrown below the belt. But all along I never resort into calling names online. I know some of them from the other side have been calling me names on their blogs, comments, twitter and pluck. But I will not scoop to that level and return any fancy names.
I was reading back and I admit that I shouldn’t have said some stuff. Being angry is no excuse for those childish post. I keep saying about others in the past, but when I land myself in the same situation, I couldn’t control myself and practice self restrain. Now I fully understand their reaction when they were being banned.
But I still stand by the things that I’ve said in the beginning. I still believe that the whole “In Group” comment is not good for the community. I still feel that it will split the community into 2. That why I voiced out my views, hoping that ping.sg will do something about it to prevent an elite group from forming. Some of you said that the method I use is wrong. I admit it might not be the best method, but end of the day, I still have the community at heart. I’m doing it to prevent the community from breaking apart.
At one point of time, I was asking myself, why am I doing all these? Why risk damaging my reputation? Why land yourself in their blacklist book? After all, I’m running a business related to blogs. I’m running for Omy blog awards now. I’m negotiating a blogging assignment with a company. Why put myself into such risk?
Why risk my company being backslashed by the community? Why risk being drop from the Omy Blog award? Why risk being rejected by the company?
Cause I don’t wish to see this community split into 2 camps. Many of you might disagree with me that a simple personal blog entry by Daphne will do so much damage. But I’m seeing the whole issue from the other side of the fence. I saw the cracks forming with my very own eyes. With regulars telling me that they have given up on the community. I can’t sit there and let everything collapse.
My approach may not be the best. I could have handled this issue better. I should have practice more self restrain. I’m sorry that I didn’t. The emotions was too great for me to control. I admit I really lost it. I’m sorry to the people I’ve hurt. I know some of you might not accept my apologies. I respect your decision.
End of the day, I still wish the community will return to it’s former glory.
You may or may not believe what I’ve said. I’ve already put forward my personal views on everything in this blog. You have every rights to form your own judgement. If you don’t agree with me, then please at least allow us to agree to disagree.
That’s all I want to say about this issue. I’ve already said a lot today. I’ll stop blogging about this issue from now on as promise earlier today. I will be reading your comments and blog entries. I’ll reply if there is a need to clarify anything. Else, I’ll rest my case.
As for the banning issue, if Uzyn unbans me, I’ll return back to the community and continue to give him the full support that I’ve given him in the past. If he feels that I should remain banned because of the things that I’ve done, then I wish him and his team all the best for their future endeavors.
Written on 6 July 2008, 6:45pm.