Why is it that everytime after making up my mind, someone will surely come along and derail me again?

Received a call from a ex-colleague on Friday night. He has a lobang for me. A headhunter approach him and offered him a job. But he is quite happy with his current job now. So the headhunter ask if he know anyone suitable for the job and he recommended me.

Its nice to know that someone actually thinks of you when they have a job offer on hand. It is like a confirmation that you are good in your job. But his phone call set me thinking…. Should I give it a try? After all, my mind is more or less set at staying on for another year.

I look at the requirements for the job. I didn’t meet some of the requirements. But heck, who cares? The pay seems good. There is a need to travel overseas sometimes. The only think I don’t like is that you need to be able to provide support to client 24/7.

Someone’s comment set me into another deep thinking. “What do you want in a job?”

Few weeks back, I wanted career advancement and good learning opportunities. I wasn’t much bothered by the pay. (in fact, I even thought of going jobless for a few months) I wouldn’t mind traveling oversea. In fact, I would love to travel oversea.

That was few weeks ago. Thinks have changed slightly.
I still wanted career advancement and learning opportunities. But I also wanted money. Lots of them. (Who doesn’t anyway?) And I don’t really feel like traveling oversea now…. unless it is short terms.

I don’t know. There is no such thing as best of both worlds. Surely there will be some stuff that you don’t like bundled together. I think there should be some give and take.

Maybe I’ll update my resume and see my market worth.

Ok, this is another work rant…..

The stuff I’m doing at my new sub team is slightly different from what I was doing in my previous sub team. The biggest different is the process. In my old sub team, our codings usually went thru only 1 group of external testers. These external testers are “quite good” at testing. Although I don’t really like their teamlead. But anyway, they are quite good at testing.

But at the new sub team, our coding went thru 2 groups of tester. 1 is group is internal tester and the other groups is the external tester. Basically, they are testing the same stuff. And before giving the tester the codes, I would have already done 1 set of testing myself too. While I see the need for the external tester, I really don’t know why the heck do we need those internal tester. They are testing the same thing as the external tester.

Actually, I wouldn’t mind too much if the internal testers are as good as the external ones….. but they are not. I seriously don’t know what are they testing. Firstly, they mess up the testing scenarios. Pumping in tons of messy data which make verifications difficult. Those scenarios are near impossible to get in real business world. Anyway, its ok for messy scenarios. The main problem is, they don’t know how to verify if the testing is correct or wrong.

I repeat again….. The internal tester don’t know how to verify if the testing results is correct or wrong. If that is the case, then what are you for? All they need to do is to pump in data to my codes and generate the results. Then they print out the records and come to ask me if it is correct or not. So I need to waste 2 hours of my time doing the checking and teaching them how to check if the results are correct or wrong. Might as well save it and let me do the testing myself.

Seriously, it is very easy to pump in data. The hard part is to verify that the results and do the first level investigation. They can’t even verify the results, how are they going to do investigation. WHY do we need a group of degree holder internal testers when all they know is how to pump in data? I don’t need a degree holder to pump in data. This kind of job is for O level holders. ANY tom, dick or harry can do that. We need someone who can verify the results and do investigations.

And the whole team of internal tester can’t do that.

After that 2 hour session, I wanted to ask him 1 question….. “Then you test simi?” All you do is pump in data only. I’m the 1 who verify the results. I’m the 1 who do the 1st level verifications. What were you doing?

Just had a senseless argument with my dad. Don’t know what is wrong with him.

For no reason, my dad suddenly ask me if I want to be a slave for a new house. He wanted to sell off the current house and upgrade. We are living in a 4 room flat. He is not thinking of 5 room or EC….. He is thinking of landed property. Crazy.

Lets get the background straight. I just started working 3 years ago. I’m holding a Diploma and doing part time Degree program. Dad has his own business but is not doing very well. Thus, he has not been taking pay from the company for quite some time.

Like that how to buy landed property? Even after selling off the current HDB flat, I still have to pay a lot of money every month. How do I get the money to pay the monthly installment with my current pay? And to add on, my dad bought a lot of insurance for me while I was still in school. Now that I’m working, I have to pay those insurance myself. And seriously, sometimes I wonder why I need so much insurance? I’m a analyst programmer. The only danger I have everyday is crossing the road and switching on the PC!

Maybe he was just day dreaming. I told him the reality and he doesn’t seem happy that I spoilt his dream. What follows is a string of senseless argument. He was saying things like last time he also buy this house and feed 5 people in the family. Somemore his education level lower and earning lesser than what I’m earning now. And I don’t need to feed anyone.

But he fail to see that the living standard in the past and now is different. Last time, $1.50 can buy a packet of chicken rice. He forgot that he don’t have to pay insurance in the past. And our 4 room HDB flat can be paid by CPF. Landed property can meh? I don’t know. And I don’t have anyone to feed now, doesn’t mean I forever don’t have anyone to feed. So how do I have kids in the future if I have to slave myself to pay for a land property?

Did he ever think about these issue? And he is saying 船到桥头自然直. WHAT? You want me to buy something that we cannot afford now and struggle every month just to satify your dream? What if the boat doesn’t go straight? What if I suddenly lose my job? What if I got some illness and need money for treatments?

This is perhaps 1 of the reason why some people go bankrupt. Buying something you cannot afford.

The argument slowly evolved to whether I capable of buying a HDB flat now. WTF. I just started working for 3 years. I can buy a HDB flat now, but I will need to struggle to support it. It is hard to support a flat alone. What for I go create such trouble for myself?

This is so senseless. Yes, we can daydream. But there is a time where reality sets in.

Date: 25 Apr 2006
Time: 12Noon to 7pm
Great World City
United Square
Suntec City Mall
Singapore Zoo

Hmmm….. Should I take 1/2 day for free Ice Cream?

Crazy…. I’ll go Ben n Jerry this weekend and buy some myself. Hahaha.

Just having a severe writer block.

Assignment due on thursday. Still have alot not completed.
Exam is mid next month. Haven’t study yet.
Backlog at work. Never seem to clear.
Haven’t been doing much exercise lately. Chin up bar still down.

And even if my house falls down,
I wouldn’t have a clue
Because you’re near me

My blog is on the stock market?

Look like something that can be easily faked. I can just create a lot of blog and link to myself and see my value go up….. haha….

So my blog cost $5,164.94 now…. Hmmm…. can exchange that for cash now? 😀