I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking

Lost track of the number of people who ask me how am I going to celebrate today.
Seriously, I still don’t know yet. And its already 1pm plus going 2.

I went to east coast beach last night. Was alone walking along the beach, listening to the sound of the gentle wave and the enjoying the cool sea breeze. I love to be at the beach during weekday night. The place is so peaceful and its almost like you are on a deserted island. Its a good time to relax and ponder.

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Is it that I haven’t found what I’m looking for or I still don’t know what I’m looking for?

I haven’t make a wish infront of a birthday cake for a few years already. And when I had a cake infront of me last sunday and a chance to make a wish, my mind went blank. Is it that I don’t know what I want? Or is it that I know my wish will never come true simply by wishing?

I have a few targets, ambition and cravings. But sometimes I wonder, do I really want them or am I chasing them for the sake of having them? Do I really want them that badly that I cannot live without them?

What am I looking for exactly? 26 years on earth and I still don’t really know the answer.

So, my birthday wish for this year is “Let me find what I’m looking for”.

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U2 – I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking

I have climbed highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for
But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire

I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone

But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for
But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for

I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well yes I’m still running

You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame
You know I believed it

But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for
But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for
But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for
But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for…

2 comments

  1. Happy Birthday DK! Don’t sound so sad. Cheer up! You still have many more happy years to go! Take time to ponder what you are looking for. And it will appear when you least expect it to.

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