I thought everything would be fine when I just returned to office from my 1 1/2 week long study leave on Wednesday. My threshold level for their nonsense should be quite high after the long break. I was wrong. In less that 1 hour, I got so fed up with the stupid things that people do while I’m away that I feel like just typing out my resign letter on the spot. All these people cares about is covering their backside and wait for retirements.
I cannot stay in this company forever. I’m already feeling the effects of being in this company. Somehow, I’m turning very slack as the days go by. I’m beginning to become one of them. With the retiree mentality, sometimes I call it RM for short.
I told myself that I’m going to use this weekend to think about the next step. We still have less than a 1/4 of the weekend left, and I’m still not quite decided which step to take. I have several options. Maybe I should list them out.
Find a new job and resign. This is the safest step. Everyone is saying this is the way to go. But the problem is, I’m currently a diploma holder doing my degree. I will be getting my degree in 1/2 year time. Which makes me in the middle of nowhere. Jobs that requires a diploma may not want me because I would be over-qualified in 6 month time. Most employer would think that I will surely change a job once I get my degree. Jobs that require a degree will not want me because I haven’t gotten my degree yet, which makes me under-qualified. In short, I’m in the middle of nowhere.
Resign now, take a break then find a new job. Actually, I quite like this idea. I’ve been working for 4 years since I came out from NS. I need a break. And I could take this time to pick up some new skill. Currently, I’m thinking of picking up web programming. With that skill, maybe I could take up a few freelance job in the future, or create some interesting website myself as a hobby. Then when I’m done with the learning, I’ll find a new job and continue to do freelance and web development while at my new job.
But the problem is am I able to survive without a payslip? Will others think that I’m a slacker who don’t want to work even though I’m spending those time picking up new skill and doing freelance? Will my dad nag and nag and nag at me whole day for not finding a proper job? Would any gal find security in a guy without a stable income? And what if I couldn’t find a job after I had enough break and learnt what I wanted to learn?
The last option is to stay at my current company until I finish my degree. Maybe switch job once I got my degree. EVERYONE around me is telling me to take this option. well… almost everyone. I don’t know. I really don’t think this is the right path to choose. I don’t want to there for too long until I become like one of them. I don’t know how long more can I endure their nonsense.
Why is everyone suggesting this path? Is it because its the safest way to go? Some people told me that everywhere is the same. Is it really the case? I know the current state of my company. At least if I change a new job, its a 50-50 percent chance of landing myself in a better place. Seriously, this is the last last option I’m taking.
Which path should I choose?
As I was typing this entry, I suddenly realise that the question that has been in my head for the past few days wasn’t really about which path to choose. Instead, it is about how to pick up my courage and walk the path that my heart wants to go.