I still remember during Nexus when I feel uneasy telling people which company am I from. Other than being there as an individual and dislike my company, there is another reason which I didn’t mention.
Because there is nothing much to say about my work. My job is doing something that is important yet mostly unnoticed. I usually don’t like to talk much about it because there is no pride when telling people. Its nothing fantastic.
Over the past few days, I’ve been dreaming and deciding which path to take. And I know my current job is not the place I want to stay in. It is not just the RM people in my office or the stupid policy they had. Its just that there is no sense of achievement in the everyday things I do. Even after I managed to solve that huge error recently, there still isn’t much sense of achievement.
I want to do something for myself. Something fantastic. Something that I can feel proud when telling people at networking function. I admit I like compliments. Well, who doesn’t?
Recently, I’ve been surrounded by people who have achieved a lot in their life. Some of them are younger than me. They got me asking myself, what was I doing? I look back and saw four years of my life wasted. I could had done much more for the past four years. But I was busy at work and studies.
I told myself that I want to spend this weekend thinking about what I want to do. I off my twitter so that it will not disturb me. I went out to the streets, wondering aimlessly trying to find inspiration on what to do.
I finally found my inspiration here.
No, I’m not going into street arts. Don’t worry. I suck at drawing.
I was looking at the chalk drawing by Julian Beever at Raffles City and seeing the reaction of everyone. Everyone is using their handphone camera to take picture. Everyone is saying the word “wow” when they saw it. And at that moment, I suddenly realise what I really wanted to do in life.
I want to do something that will make everyone say “wow” when they see it.
Maybe I should really go into web programming. I used to be quite good in programming during poly days. I’m sure I still am now, just that I need some time to get the engine started again. But I’ve never done web programming before. There are a lot of things I need to catch up. Need to learn PHP, MySQL and stuff. It is almost impossible for me to do it if I’m still working at my current company. There isn’t enough time. So I guess I’m really resigning and going jobless for a few month. Pick up the skill, get everything on the right track before deciding if I want to find another job or carry on doing freelance.
I know its going to be tough. Many people will surely say I’m crazy to put down a well paid job. Well, I guess I’m still young to explore the world. If I don’t do it now, then when can I do it?
I hope my family and love ones will give me their support.
I’m going to take option 2. I believe that this is the best way for me to make everyone say “wow”. This is my new dream.