And just like that, the number 38 is here. (a few days ago)
No warning was given but we already know it is coming. Maybe I’m just shocked or in denial that it came so fast. I was used to being the youngest or among the youngest person in the room. But nowadays I keep finding myself being the oldest. Need to get used to that.
And I thought I should have gotten life figured out by now. But that wasn’t the case. I resigned from my job 2 months ago cause it wasn’t going the direction that I wanted and it’s taking up too much of my time. So I’m now jobless and it feels like a rewind of what happened 10 years ago when I left my first job. They say that when one door closes, another door will open. I wish that door is a glass door which allows me to see what’s next before entering. But life doesn’t work this way. Like what Steve Jobs said, “You can’t connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards.” And he is right. It always make sense when you connect the dots backwards.
I don’t know what’s next. But I trust that the dots will connect like it always does.
It’s so hard to get old without a cause
I don’t want to perish like a fading horse
Youth’s like diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever